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Thursday, October 27, 2005


i almost lost it..i almost gave up on you..on this whole relationship...but i guess i love you too much..thats why i simply cannot say those words that would have ended this relationship out of my mouth...i really felt like giving up but those words juz wun come out..im grateful for that..jealousy was eating into me ytd..that i have to admit..thats why im acting like such a bitch...but you did not help things too..you were speaking words that i never imagined you would say..i felt like shit..and you wouldnt do anything to make me feel better...i went to sleep crying..i woke up crying too...but in the end..i dun know what happened..call it the power of love if you want..i juz got enlightened..like within a snap of the fingers...i got enlightened..and im proud of myself for being able to do that..i msged you to apologise..sorry for putting you through such torture..but i guess both of us are at fault..but im gald i managed to break free from this for now..the jealousy thing was really horrible..i broke away from it now..and for now..i feel calm..i know i will feel jealous again..but im juz gonna try to curb this fucking bad habit..i hope i can..becos i know if i dun curb it..this will be the cause of our breakup next time..becos i know you wun be able to stand it..you might try to put up with it..but sooner or later..you will choose the easy way out..which is to give up..and i DUN WANT THAT DAY TO COME..so i will change..im trying...bear with me ok?


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Pamela a.k.a pammie
11 august 1988
Leo
awtpamela@yahoo.com.sg

chongfu primary school
swiss cottage sec school
MI (1 st 3 months)
ngee ann polytechnic early childhood education
swiss choir
swiss bowlers

Wishes

A nice jacket
more Birky slippers
Ipod speakers
Lose 5 kg
More clothes/bags/earrings
Tommy Girl perfume
LV bag
PASS MY GRADE 8 PIANO PRACTICAL EXAM
master muay thai and wakeboarding
Spend more time with loved ones

Loves

zhiwei. my family. my besties. my friends. kids. chilling with friends. watching movies. wakeboarding. thai boxing. slacking. having fun. beach. playing the piano. reading. magazines. squash. my mobile. soccer. taking photos. shopping. drinking sometimes. chatting on the phone

Hates

being broke. liars. hypocrites. being lonely. feeling down. having no directions in life. being left out

History

February 2005
March 2005
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May 2005
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