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Monday, May 23, 2005


hmmm..shucks..my mind 's in a mess now..serious..im like suffering from some kinda crisis..shit..and im bloody hating it..argh..juz came across someone's blog..and thoughts and memories?? came rushing back to me..hai..how could i even think of this? how could i even think of everything im thinking?? damn..what kinda person does that make me? im really sorry dar if you're reading this..i feel so bad..i feel like i betrayed you or something..although all i did were juz thinking of some stuff..sorry..i still love you lots..l love you lots..but i was juz thinking..forgive me k? i should stop talking bout this and start talking bout something else instead..
anyway..was looking through some stuff dar gave me when we were still kor and mei..haha..those memories will stay with me forever..they were all really nice and sweet memories i really treaure..hehe..we used to collect postcards and write on them for each other.. was reading them juz now..haha..i felt that those postcards were sooooo precious!!they kinda bonded the both if us together? something like that..haha..and i really loved it..haha..they were so sweet..i mean.. dar was really much sweeter last time..he takes effort to do little stuff for me..but now..im not so sure..darn..talking bout unpleasant stuff again..shucks..sometimes i wonder if dar takes me for granted..that i'll always be there..but..what if one day im not? what will you do? will you find me? will you search for me? or will you juZ leave it? and take it that i'll be back one day? i wanna be loved...but i find getting love from you so difficult..i wanna be pampered..but i find myself pampering you instead..i wanna juz be like every other girl..being loved by their bf..but i find myself acting the role of a bf instead..this aint right know? i dun feel that kinda urge from you to see me or to find out how have my day been..instead..i find myself picking up the phone to dial you and ask you whats up..and even then..you cant really be bothered to talk to me..i feel like a bloody nuisance..am i? dun make me feel this way cos it aint a good feeling..darn..i dun feel like blogging anymore for the moment..+crying silently+


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Pamela a.k.a pammie
11 august 1988
Leo
awtpamela@yahoo.com.sg

chongfu primary school
swiss cottage sec school
MI (1 st 3 months)
ngee ann polytechnic early childhood education
swiss choir
swiss bowlers

Wishes

A nice jacket
more Birky slippers
Ipod speakers
Lose 5 kg
More clothes/bags/earrings
Tommy Girl perfume
LV bag
PASS MY GRADE 8 PIANO PRACTICAL EXAM
master muay thai and wakeboarding
Spend more time with loved ones

Loves

zhiwei. my family. my besties. my friends. kids. chilling with friends. watching movies. wakeboarding. thai boxing. slacking. having fun. beach. playing the piano. reading. magazines. squash. my mobile. soccer. taking photos. shopping. drinking sometimes. chatting on the phone

Hates

being broke. liars. hypocrites. being lonely. feeling down. having no directions in life. being left out

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